Im not sure why God works the way he does. We just found out that we didn’t get some funding we applied for. This funding doesn’t mean staying or leaving, but it did mean living life a bit more comfortably. I think we were kind of assuming we would get it, so when the electricity will went up loads we weren’t worried, when our rent went up a little we didn’t fret, I got a more expensive phone contract and I started having this mindset that actually after we get this money we will be in ‘the promised land’. I would be able to go out for coffee whenever, we can go to the cinema without saving for it, no need to budget each food shop to the penny. These things would be nice, the money would have given us more stability and meant that Matts position would still be there when we leave.
When Katie first invited me to this link-up in July I instantly thought, well thats vain! Taking pictures of myself, on purpose, and deliberately putting them in a place where other people will see them, no!
So there we have it, the story of my first photo shoot.
Thanks for reading x
PS. I CANT WAIT to tell you more about the social enterprise and promise to in the next week!
There are some memories that we will hold dear forever. The past 2 days are such memories. We did miles and miles and miles of kayaking, ending up on a beautiful sandy beach, scavenged for fire wood and set up camp. The sky was clear and the sunset burned red as we ate our fire cooked smokey pasta. We then put our tins of rice pudding in the fire and ate it as the full moon came fully in to view. As we let the embers cool we got into our sleeping bags and settled down in our tents on the sand with life jackets for pillows. I drifted off to sleep with the sound of water lapping scarily close to my ears.
In the morning I woke with the sun, we climbed out of our tents shook off the stiffness and embraced the freshness of morning. The sun was rising in the east and the tide was far away. Just sand between us and the sea. We rekindled the fire and made morning coffee with which to enjoy the view. A few friendly dog walkers passed by with a wave and we started to prepare for a longer paddle back to home with a brief coffee shop stop. I brushed my teeth and rinsed my face in salt water. On the way back we saw seals and shoals of fish pass under our canoes, the water clear enough to see all the way to the sea bed. As we made our way along the final stretch of coast a beautiful sandbank stretched out in front of us, new sand shaped by the current. We ran through the shallows, pulling the canoe along, laughing and splashing everywhere, as fast as we could to stop the sand closing in around us as the tide went out. We made it across and dragged the boat up the beach before diving in for ourselves and letting the water wash away the smoke and heat, so happy-hearted.
‘Hot sand on toes, cold sand in sleeping bags,
I’ve come to know that memories
Were the best things you ever had
The summer shone beat down on bony backs
So far from home where the ocean stood
Down dust and pine cone tracks
We slept like dogs down by the fire side
Awoke to the fog all around us
The boom of summer time
Steady as the stars in the woods
And the warmth rang true inside these bones
As the old pine fell we sang
Just to bless the morning’
Ben Howard-Old Pine
I really do feel privileged to have the family I have.
My heart swells with pride for my bother and sisters. I am the oldest therefore feel protective and slightly motherly over them.
The age gap between myself and the youngest is 7 years. I still remember waking up in the night when I heard her cry and going in to give her a cuddle. I also remember sleeping in the room next door and hearing her cough then not being able to sleep. I had to check that she was still breathing and happy before I could rest…. I really hope I’m not so paranoid when it comes to having my own children or I will never sleep. But I guess that comes with the territory.
These are a few pictures I took in half term, like I said, we fitted EVERYTHING into those short few hours with my fam. Including my favourite coffee place with the Fam and Grandparents. Who do you reckon got genes passed down from my mums parents?
In this picture Jon and Grandad and figuring out how to suspend the plant pot on the table from the umbrella string pull thing…. much to Grandmas distaste.
Everyone is looking at mum as she sneakily takes a chair from a band set-up on the grass
We then went for a nice walk and Dad taught us all how to make grass trumpets. Jon and Bea did some climbing, Bea had to be rescued by Dad.
A lovely afternoon :)
Over half term we did the family rounds, we went down south and spent time with my siblings, parents, grandparent, auntie and uncle, cousins (that was all in 1 and a half days). We then went up to Derby and saw Matt’s parents and their shiny new kitchen.
It was so nice! Being with my family was especially lovely as I’ve not seen Bea since she went to India and the last time we visited was Christmas (I cant believe how quickly time flies). Somehow in those 36 hours we fitted in doing all my favorite things, one of which was a canoe down the river Arun. It been a long time since I last went on a family canoeing trip, I forget how much it sparks my imagination and inspires me to venture out. Whilst in Derby Matt found his old camping stove, we bought it back to London and I’m personally feeling pretty darn excited for the day we decide to grab our tent, stove, flask and cycle off into the sunset. However, Matt has a job (what an inconvenience!?), so it will have to wait a little while.
Mum and Dad doing all the hard work. The guy with the oar is Marcus, he’s living with the fam for a while.
Hey there mum.
Hey there wonky picture of best husband ever.
The other two siblings were at work, so we just get the lovely Lydia.
It was the beginning of this glorious sunshine we’re having. Matt and I take very different stances when it comes to suncream. I am the idiot who doesn’t need it because they ‘never get burnt’ except every time she uses that as an excuse she goes home with lobster shoulders. Matt is super cautious and reapplies constantly but somehow still burns. We had to get the aloe vera out for the first time since our honeymoon in Egypt. The smell and stickiness reminded me of the suncream aloe concoction that was applied every day we were there. Hilarious and joy filled memories!
I hope everyone is finding ways to enjoy the sunshine, and praying it stays.